HAYSKUL.

Ngayong bente anyos na ko, napagtanto ko kailan lang na namimiss ko ang buhay highschool. Isa sa pinaka masayang yugto ng buhay ng isang tao kung saan dun ka mamumulat sa mga bagay-bagay tungkol sa buhay. Naniniwala akong hindi lang ito masaya ngunit ito ung mga panahon na masarap balik-balikan!

• 1, yung pagising ko ng sobrang maaga. Noon ayokong ayoko na nalalate sapagkat datapwat (HAHA) napaka higpit ng aming eskwelahan, pag nalate ka ang daming tatanungin sayo, katulad na lang ng tanong ni Casimiro sakin noon na "Bakit late ka natulog?" at kung ano anong shit pa.

Ngayon, kahit 30mins late ako sa klase ayos lang. Lagi kong iniisip na "OKAY LANG NAMAN PUMASOK NG LATE, WALANG PAKELAM YUNG PROF".

• 2, namiss kong sumakay ng BUS. Mapa ordinary man ito o aircon at ang masarap pa rito kasabay ko lagi pumasok yung kapatid kong lalaki na nag-aaral sa tabi ng aking paaralan, wala ng iba kundi sa NOTRE. Lalo na pag Nov-Jan napakalamig sa daan minsan gusto ko na lang matulog sa bus.

NGAYON, malungkot pumasok mag-isa lalo na kung nagddrive kang pumapasok. Pwede kang sumigaw sa loob ng sasakyan hanggang mawalan ka ng boses at wala rin akong mapagtanungan kung bakit traffic. Dati kapatid ko bff ko, ngayon bestfriend ko ung radyo, WALA NG IBA. Dahil dito, nakilala ko sina Mo Twister, Mojo & Grace Lee.

• 3, yung pag attend ng FLAG CEREMONY AT ANG PAG KANTA NG SCHOOL HYMN. "The school we love St. Mary's is her name" LALALALA.

Ngayong college na ko mabibilang ko pa sa daliri ko kung ilang flag ceremony palang na attendan ko at lalong lalo ng di ko kabisado ang SCHOOL HYMN NG SCHOOL KO NGAYON. Nakakatawa lang kasi nakikisabay na lang ako sa mga schoolmates kong kumakanta, feeling ko alam ko na rin, pag ako lang ang pakakantanhin walang lalabas sa bibig ko NI HA, NI HO.

• 4, yung mga paulit ulit kong kinakain sa canteen. Noong HS, natitiis kong di kumain ng lunch okay lang kahit walang carb.

E ngayong college na ko mas lalo ko pang nakilala ng lubusan sila McDo, Jollibee, Chowking, Inengs, Shakeys (NAME IT ALL SA KATIP).

• 5, ang pagtambay after class sa back gate kahit buong araw mo na silang kasama hindi ka pa rin nagsasawa sa mukha nila kahit sa uwian. At dahilan na rin siguro na nagka-boyfriend ako noong panahon na to, sabay kami lagi umuwi. Kakain ng kung ano-anong merienda mapa streetfoods solve na!

Ngayon, pag nag ring ang bell, inuunahan pa namin lumabas ang prof minsan sa pintuan. Minsan di pa kami dinidismiss nasa pintuan na kami. GANON KAMI KAEXCITED UMUWI. Pag gusto namin magmerienda, streetfoods agad ang naiisip namin. Dumadayo pa kami sa UP DILIMAN, the best ang isawan dun.

• 6, yung mga papetiks petiks na seatworks, exams, at quizzes. Nung highschool multiple choice, pwede pang magkopyahan at may tulungan factor pa.

Ngayon di na pwede, kung di ka nag-aral siguradong babagsak ka. Lalo na kung panay essay ang binibigay ng professors, minsan masaya mag creative writing kung alam mo talaga, pero kung wala ka talagang alam wag mo na lang sagutan dahil mapapahiya ka lang.

• 7, namimiss ko yung mga lalaki kong kaibigan na araw-araw makikipag-asaran sayo hanggang sa mapikon ka na. O kaya naman may aasarin kayong kaibigan niyo at pagtutulungan niyo pang lahat. Iba pa rin pag may lalaki kang kasama, iba yung saya.  * Wala palang lalaki sa school ko ngayon.

• 8, para kayong magkakapatid sa classroom. Pag may nagawang mali yung isa, kasalanan na ng lahat. 

• 9, yung may matatawag kayong adviser. Sa kanya lahat magsusumbong katulad ng hindi tumulong sa ganito, hindi naglinis sa araw na to si ganyan. HAHAHA.

• 10, sa HS darating yung panahon na magkakagusto ka sa opposite sex at masarap sa feeling yung kinikilig kilig ka na minsan parang tanga na lang.

Ngayong college na ko gusto ko bumalik sa pagiging HS. Di rin ako magtataka kung tumanda ako gusto kong bumalik sa pagiging bata. 

One Morning!

Some Pinoys would like to receive pasalubongs from their relatives/friends who went out of town or even went out of the country and of course I’m one of them who love to receive these kind of stuffs! HEAR HEAR! 

I received pasalubongs with an “S” (HAHAHAH) from someone since his family went to Bangkok, Thailand and here it is!

                                        

My gay pose with my new PINK TOOTHBRUSH.

To you, saying “THANK YOU AND I APPRECIATE THAT YOU EVEN WASTED TIME TO LOOK FOR THIS.” :)

My buddies.

My two bestest friends in the whole wide world. I miss you both so much. I have lots of kwentos to make. :|

Got you there!

Let me smile this way again. 

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            When I was 4 years old, I remember the days when my mother and father got separated. It was peculiar growing up when your father wasn’t around. I won’t forget the night wherein there was a party in our house when my mother and father were inside the bedroom and I don’t know why I was there. All of my relatives were in the sala having their good time. I just can’t remember what occasion was that. My mother was screaming on my father pointing a gun to my dad’s head. I was crying so hard that night in front of a mirror. There were times that my eldest brother and I stayed in our room while mother and father were having their argument. I wasn’t aware about the reason why they got separated. I woke up one day that my dad wasn’t in our house anymore. I’m not eager to know what’s happening between the two of them since I’m still a child. Until I was 8 years old, I met my younger stepbrother. Of course, I was shocked. I was not hurt for the fact that I have a little brother. But then, I realized that my dad had a mistress and that was the problem that my mom was carrying during those times.

            In a turn-around of events, everything was placed according to its places. My parents got back together and we are all happy. Everything is doing well. However, as I grew up and in the process of becoming a matured individual, I always have this question in my mind; “Why my father committed infidelity?”

There are a lot of reasons and factors why men cheated their wives. I don’t know what would be the real reason of some men. Probably they’re not happy anymore with their relationship, or poor communication if their wives are abroad, or peer pressure, which they think if a man has more woman they are real men or conveying the macho image. Every guys mind is a puzzle. It’s challenging to solve.

             I think, the reason why father cheated my mother was, he was experiencing emotional dissatisfaction that time. Probably mother also did something wrong because if there were none, my father will not have a mistress. My father might be looking for something, which he found from another woman.  There’s a possibility that father thought he felt a different kind of love from another woman. I wonder if my father even thought about my mother’s feelings. There are a lot of probabilities and possibilities. Now I’m 19 years old, there are times that I want to ask my father why he cheated on my mother. However, I don’t have the courage to ask him because it’s a sensitive matter. I know everything has its purpose and reasons. We may learn it on the spot or in the process. But sometimes there are things that we cannot answer. And there are things that are better left unsaid or unanswered.

   All men are hunters. It’s part of human nature for people to be attracted in different ways. When the words “infidelity” and “cheating” are brought up, they are always applicable on the male species. Probably if given the irresistible chance or circumstance, there could be a possibility that my mother would cheat on my father. Just like the quote by Henry Ward Beecher, there is always a possibility that given the right temptation based on their preferences, men and women can be attracted emotionally or physically, and even if we are committed can commit infidelity. This only signifies that as human beings, we are not perfect. And this paves way or might somehow justify “human nature”. No matter how strong and founded our character is, there are always chances that we commit mistakes.

           With those experiences that I had, I learned how to give importance to the feelings of others especially to my loved ones. I don’t want to experience the same thing that my mom experienced in her life when my dad cheated on her. If they cheated the only point is they don’t care about your feelings. You can forgive but you can’t forget. Sometimes my mom told me that the trauma is still there and it haunts her at night when there are going to sleep. I can’t blame my dad for what he did. I believe he had reasons. I can’t give her advices though I believe my dad respects her now. My dad won’t come back to us if he wasn’t sorry.

 I just say that we can’t deny that we can be physically attracted to some individuals knowing we have our commitments but it comes with self-discipline. I keep insisting her that past is past because it made her even stronger to face every challenges.

             If being applied to reality of life, probably it depends upon on each person’s understanding. Infidelity is a sensitive issue, from the beginning till the end. It can be committed either by the male or female. The father or the mother can commit infidelity. This topic is subjective and relative. For some, infidelity can conclude and proved that the other party is not worthy of the love that was given, hence ending the relationship and going separate ways.

             For others, infidelity strengthens the relationship that they have because it was tested by temptation. Thus giving the relationship a second chance, which made it lovelier the second time around. Even if it’s case-to-case basis, I find it intriguing. No matter what the situation is, it’s a matter of how we apply what we have learned or how we take them as an individual, whether for the good or for the bad.